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This is just a full-of-myself-blab about sexuality -,- so what if I'm confused, it's not like I need to clear things up...
This is just a full-of-myself-blab about sexuality -,- so what if I'm confused, it's not like I need to clear things up...
I know liking girly men doesn't really indicate anything... of course there are other things that make me think if I'm gay (les) or not. But... there's no special person in particular that I like now that triggers me to think this...
OK there ARE people that I'm interested in that makes me think that I like girly men (isn't it somehow sad for them to be liked by me? XD) but those are more like... idols -.- so... meh~
But then seriously, I'm not *worried* if I'm interested in the same sex or not. If I am, I totally accept it myself. lol... the thing would just be... how'm I gonna convey my feelings to that person... HAHA... Don't worry, I'll probably... NOT tell them ^^;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;
Granny... i'm going to be a single granny all mi life... =.= YADAA... or, really, i dont care XD
P.S. the main reason that makes me think i'm abnormal is cuz... im not comfortable with guys at all... at all... at all... not virtually, not spiritually, but physically. there mere PRESENCE makes me uneasy -_- the thought of being together with any of them makes me uncomfortabley sick. sweat. dizzy. want to throw up.
It's always different in fantasies (lol). I like some of the seiyuus a lot, sometimes I even think wouldnt it be great if I were their girlfriends. hahaha... but when it comes to real life... I can't even guarantee if I'd be comfortable with them... Just the thought of getting close to any guy makes me SO SICK. My head can't stand it at all... crap, i REALLY am abnormal... -___- is that because I went to 12 years of girls school? -______-
I think this could be more than not being used to guys... gah -.- I have an issue, don't I? *dies*
OK there ARE people that I'm interested in that makes me think that I like girly men (isn't it somehow sad for them to be liked by me? XD) but those are more like... idols -.- so... meh~
But then seriously, I'm not *worried* if I'm interested in the same sex or not. If I am, I totally accept it myself. lol... the thing would just be... how'm I gonna convey my feelings to that person... HAHA... Don't worry, I'll probably... NOT tell them ^^;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;
Granny... i'm going to be a single granny all mi life... =.= YADAA... or, really, i dont care XD
P.S. the main reason that makes me think i'm abnormal is cuz... im not comfortable with guys at all... at all... at all... not virtually, not spiritually, but physically. there mere PRESENCE makes me uneasy -_- the thought of being together with any of them makes me uncomfortabley sick. sweat. dizzy. want to throw up.
It's always different in fantasies (lol). I like some of the seiyuus a lot, sometimes I even think wouldnt it be great if I were their girlfriends. hahaha... but when it comes to real life... I can't even guarantee if I'd be comfortable with them... Just the thought of getting close to any guy makes me SO SICK. My head can't stand it at all... crap, i REALLY am abnormal... -___- is that because I went to 12 years of girls school? -______-
I think this could be more than not being used to guys... gah -.- I have an issue, don't I? *dies*
Going to an all girls school for that long does affect you, I sure know, but the sexuality issue would only be slightly influenced by that but wouldn't be decided by it either. I think that feeling uncomfortable around guys is normal considering you've been around a majority of girls for a long time, especially school since that's where you learn all your social conventions and such. As for the liking girly men part, it's just aesthetically pleasing, and they happen to be pretty to look at, you know? XD Personally, I think that liking girly guys usually affirms how girls are straight, but that's just what I've observed. Then liking seiyuu guys is a celebrity-crush syndrome haha, so it actually doesn't matter what the heck gender they are in that case. XD I don't think you're abnormal at all~ I know where you're coming.
2006/05/04 03:57 |
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